Hello adventurous human,
I hope you are finding joy in everyday things and satisfaction in the day to day during this fairly tumultuous passage we are currently experiencing here on planet Earth.
I can’t escape thinking about the dynamics of this particular eclipse season and how it has been working with the collective psyche.
Eclipses – the alignment of the Sun and Moon in the sky in such a way that one obscures the other – have been viewed since ancient times as heralding a shift in vision. What has previously been hidden becomes exposed.
Among other things – underlying truths surface and we are forced in some way to meet these revelations – the Shadow aspects beneath – for our own evolutionary transformation.
Eclipses are catalytic.
Something changes irrevocably and we stay fixed in denial to our own detriment.
This is true for the collective as well as igniting our own inner, quite personal unfoldment and transformation.
Eclipses usually come in pairs, though sometimes there are three.
Eclipse Season begins about two weeks before the first eclipse and ends about two week after the second or last eclipse.
The most potent time of the cycle or season is between the eclipses.
A full lunar eclipse occurred on February 17th on the New Moon heralding the beginning of the Lunar New Year of the Fire Horse.
A full solar eclipse took place on March 3rd.
We are still in that eclipse season window.
This particular eclipse cycle has been a very potent one.
When we look outward – this is apparent in daily news headlines.
Looking toward the inward landscape I have been noticing the potency as well.
In my awareness, the overarching theme of the questions that are quietly coming up seem to be some variation of this:
What has been or is the true underlying intention(s) and internal stance(s) one is holding?
How aligned to full Divine, creative expression of Self and authentic incarnational purpose are they?
The answers being revealed have been illuminating.
The surfacing of deeper level ‘truths’ and the revelation of the operating systems, programs and beliefs that have actually been running the show along with a deeper understanding of how they color the result has been revelatory indeed.
This eclipse portal is assisting us in illuminating our Shadow aspects, bringing submerged insecurities, hidden fears and unprocessed emotions into the light of day so that with loving compassion we may integrate them.
This then opens the doorway to true healing, greater self acceptance and authentic transformation.
I have been observing subtle, yet very powerful shifts taking place in those I am in conversation with, the clients I work with, the groups I facilitate and within my own psyche.
I have an image of dominoes falling in succession – spreading out from an epicenter that has recently become more steadfast and true – in all directions.
My sense is it will take some time for the dominoes to come to rest.
Potent indeed.
In my own life – the area that has received the most illumination and also been the cutting edge of challenge for me has been in updating my own self-perception as I move through different aspects of my life.
If you’ve been around for a while – it’s no secret that I have traversed much that has been challenging in this lifetime.
The foundation we arise from – our familial soup – inevitably leaves an imprint. It shapes our sense of belonging and how we view not only our roll and place in the world. It also shapes how we view the world and creates the very powerful underlying intent or belief about – well – everything.
The vast majority of this is quite unconscious, housed quietly in the psychic Shadowland operating under the surface – much like the operating system of the MacBook I am writing this Missive on.
Taken for granted. Simply so. Shadow.
Once we have an intention to authentically ‘awaken’ and step onto the Path – we begin to mature, individuate and awaken to the discord caused by the plethora of unseen programs we came in with – a sorting process of sorts is activated.
Aligned to our underlying intention to ‘self awaken’ we participate in various forms of inner work. We begin to accept aspects of self we have pushed away with compassion and understanding – broadening and widening our understanding of our inner ecology.
We learn new ways of showing up, of being – truly an ever evolving process – accessing deeper and deeper truths.
Understanding and potential already residing within us shepherds us down the Path, bringing us more and more opportunities for integration and self-individuation.
This current eclipse portal has brought into stark relief the awareness that I have in ways continued to view the world and perceive myself through the long habituated lens of where I have come from – rather than the reality of the landscape I am currently and have been traversing for some time.
Inner stance and underlying intention.
It has come to my slightly chagrined and full attention that a habitual stance of ‘playing small’ while minimizing my contribution to those around me and to the Whole – partly as survival strategy, partly due to Empiric/Patriarchal overlay – has continued in a variety of ways sneakily running the show just under the surface of my full awareness. Holy heck.
This has translated to internally discounting myself, my abilities, all that I have worked toward and accomplished along my personal transformation journey along with an absence of inner celebration of my own innate brilliance.
In other words – discounting and minimizing my own hard earned mastery rather than simply standing in it. Unconsciously shrinking to fit into some nebulous idea of expected roll rather than filling the space that only I can fill within in the totality, the Whole.
Allowing the momentary dip in the road, the difficulty, the challenge to define me rather than the totality of lived experience. The narrow view rather than the wide gaze.
It is not as though I have been unfamiliar with this pattern, this stance, this way of ‘playing safe’ and all the multi-faceted ways it manifests. This has been in my awareness for a very long time, picking it up and turning it one way or another.
It has also been in many ways as slippery as a greased pole.
Being a human on planet Earth is activating enough for anyone.
Living in metro Atlanta these last two years alongside almost Seven million other activated humans has been both an enormous challenge and a wonderful, uncomfortable opportunity of contrast allowing me to bring into greater consciousness the cellular, default operating systems that have been running my entire life.
Thankfully and more than a bit disconcertingly the curtain was recently ripped away and it has been made very clear to me that in no uncertain terms this operating system was outdated and ultimately failing me.
Plain and simple I needed to stop.
Not only is it disingenuous it has also literally become dangerous to my own well-being.
Once again – Inner stance and underlying intention.
Life is better when everything lines up.
Truth be told my overwhelming feeling is one of relief.
No more bob and weave.
No more being flippant about the totality of what I have been about this lifetime, minimizing vs owning.
No more puffing up in an unconscious effort to mask perceived inadequacy.
No more shrinking from the same perceived inadequacy.
I am able to be more present with both at the very same time.
There is more room to simply be. However that is.
Checking my stance. Paying attention to my ‘why’, to my internal vision so that I am current. More aligned to the present moment evolving me I actually am.
Ready for the next turning in the evolutionary wheel with curiosity and a sense of anticipated discovery.
Remembering that we are born little by little, every single day.
What have been your own unexpected revelations? Your strengthened stance? The inner victories you are celebrating?
I’d truly love to know.
Lets End – with a moment of Stillness and Peace to take in the serenity and unexpected beauty marking the closure of the precious gift of another day lived fully alive here on planet Earth.
This was taken one glorious Summer evening gazing across the water in Buck Bay on Orcas Island – other islands and the Olympic mountains off in the distance.
Washington state.
