What Keeps You From Having What You Really Want


I’m curious.

Do you ever do this?

Say to yourself, ” I want ________. I really, really want this (whatever it is).”

And then the Universe comes along and drops an opportunity – or many – right in front of you to move you toward that – and you pull back. You might unconsciously say to yourself, “I want this, BUT I’m not ready to reach for it – YET.”

And this conversation you have with yourself? It happens in the blink of an eye, doesn’t it? Yep! That fast and I bet you mostly aren’t even aware of what you are telling yourself a lot of the time, ’cause it’s happening under the radar.

I find this so human. So normal. We ALL do it.

We have this longing for a better life. More joy. More love. More connection. More abundance. More___fill in the blank__.

And yet we don’t always reach for it.


Here’s what I know –

To have something different than what we already have in our experience, in our lives – we have to let go of where we are now.

And that means change.

WE have to change. Our thoughts. Our stories. Our beliefs – sometimes the actual circumstances of our lives!

And on an unconscious level that can be a very scary and frightening thing for us human-beings. We are waaaay more comfortable with what we known.

Change means we have to be willing to step into the unknown. We may have an underlying, limiting belief that in order to change something it will be painful. Or it will be hard work. Or we are afraid we will loose something important to us.

We might consciously and rationally know that it doesn’t necessarily have to be this way.  However it is these unconscious programs and beliefs that are running the show a LOT of the time. And unconscious means just that – NOT conscious. Not in our awareness.

That’s why we pull back. There is a conflict – inside of us. Why we say “Yes, but….”

Even if it means NOT getting something we really, really, really want.


Not too long ago I sent out an email invitation to a NO COST six month series of Transformative Healing Sessions called Experiencing Abundance.

Lots of folks signed up.

And then…

I also had several folks send me emails and say. “I love this. I will sign up.” And then didn’t.

This fascinated me. Why take the time to send me an email instead of clicking on the link and adding their email address and name to the little form? Same time investment. Very different result. What held them back?

This response simply caught my attention, so I pondered and I figure if I had a few of those emails – I bet there are quite a few more folks that had this happen for them as well.


I do this too.

I pull back. I get distracted. I forget.

Something holds me back from saying, “Yes!” and then following through with action – which is the necessary step to show the Universe and yourself that you mean business versus just thinking about it.

I’m not talking about true discernment. That’s when you listen to your intuition, your gut, your deeper knowing, your higher self and you answer from that. Discernment rocks!

I’m talking about the instantaneous, knee jerk, under the radar reactions that keeps us contracted, small and “in place.”

That keep us from risking anything. From the unknown. From moving forward. From having what we really desire. From living a more delicious life.


I’m on a personal mission, like many of you, to slow myself down so I can choose from a place of greater self love, inner peace and discernment. I want to say an even bigger and wholehearted “Yes!” to my life. My heart and Soul. My truest desires.

This takes practice. Lots of patience. Mostly it takes paying attention and slowing down to be able to see if my actions match my desires . And it is so worth it.

Because I – like you – deeply desire to show up for myself and my life – in as many ways as I can.


This is a big part of why I am doing these Transformational Healing Sessions – because those unconscious, under-the-radar ways that we pull back from what we truly desire? These are the patterns that this work is brilliant at bringing to light and ironing out so we have some space to choose something different.

Something fresh.

Something better.


If one of your desires is to Experience more Abundance in your life…

It’s not too late to receive the first session in the six month series of monthly Transformational Group Sound Healing Sessions on Experiencing Greater Abundance. 

The next live session is Thursday the 28th of April.

I’m offering this work to anyone who would like to receive it – at NO cost.


If this feels like something that might help you say a more wholehearted “Yes!” to what you want more of in your life – I would love to have you join in.

This is the magic link to add your name and email. After you confirm – by email – that you want to be included you will get all the details to join –  and the link to listen and receive at your leisure.

I’ve already gotten great feedback from participants about what they are noticing – and it’s not small stuff!

Surprise money in the mail anyone?
If you are curious about the original email I sent out you can read it here.



IMG_7209 copyMelani Marx is a guidess, mentor, teacher, healer, entrepreneur and joyful creative being. She is the author of the Daily Essence Divination Deck and the creator of the Every Day Joy e-course. Melani reflects back to folks the Essence of who they truly are. She supports them in finding clarity and living their deepest, most joyful and abundant Soul-aligned Purpose right here, in 3-D, on our beautiful planet – Earth.


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