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Oh, honey – it’s not your fault. 

I said this to my client as she told me that in her deepest most secret places she believed that the current flair up of chronic long-term medical issues she was experiencing was because she was doing something wrong. That it was her fault that she was not completely healed.

 

Fury bloomed in my belly. Love and tenderness blossomed in my heart.

 

We don’t blame people with diabetes for having it.

Or do we?

 

We don’t blame victims of any kind of abuse for being on the receiving end of said abuse.

Or do we?

 

We don’t blame folks involved in an accident or natural catastrophe for being in “the wrong place at the wrong time.”

Or do we?

 

Especially if that someone is ourselves.

 

My client, like many of us – was raised to believe that she could will things away. Change her circumstances, her emotions and her physicality – IF – she was smart enough, strong enough, disciplined enough, clever enough, thought the right thoughts, felt the right emotions, worked hard enough, was lucky enough, forthright enough, nice enough, pretty enough, sexy enough.

Good enough.

And that is such a BIG FAT LIE.

 

It’s not your fault that you have health issues – even IF the behaviors you are participating in are exacerbating things.

It’s not your fault that you use food for comfort.

It’s not your fault that you have ever stayed too long in any loveless, soul numbing or even abusive relationship. Whether that relationship was with a lover, a friend, a family member, a living situation, a life choice or a job.

It’s not your fault that you keep smiling and saying “Yes.” when you long to say “Hell, no!”

It’s not your fault that the car died. The ceiling fell. The cat got run over.

 

And please know – I firmly believe that there is a vast difference between blaming yourself and taking true responsibility for your life. Your love. Your energy. Your choices. Your relationship with yourself.

I also believe that it’s utterly important to allow others to hold complete and absolute responsibility for their own behaviors, choices and energy.

 

 

Placing blame does not support your forward movement, resolution or healing.

In fact if you take a moment right now and feel into it – on an energetic level it actually solidifies and fortifies the very energy you are trying to liberate. It gives it more substance. More shape. MORE power, not less. It heaps more debris onto the log-jam that is already keeping things eddying in your own energy system. It creates isolation. It is part and parcel of the insidious and unconscious patterns that are keeping your bound in the first place.

 

And many of those patterns? They did not even begin with you.

These patterns often began with your mother, your father or their parents, parents, parents and were handed down through DNA.

They may have begun as karmic issues, energetic agreements, or things that we took on – often unconsciously out of love at some point in our journey – that are not even ours. And the truth is we cannot work through something that is not ours. We can only let it go.

They often begin in utero, during birth and in those very early years of life – playing out now just beyond our conscious awareness.

Patterns and behaviors that we adopted at a very early ages to survive. To stay safe.

Patterns and behaviors that our youngest selves brilliantly created, embraced and learned well – that have now outlived their usefulness.

Patterns and behaviors that have become traps, restrictions and cages rather than safe haven.

These are the patterns that keep running the shit show just below the surface of our awareness.

 

You can use all the will power in the world. You can push and force and intend with iron attention. You can berate yourself for not moving forward. For not finally figuring this out. For continuing to do things that are not in alignment with your deeper longings and intentions.

You can lie down and declare yourself a victim. Curl up. Give up. Get smaller.

You can fight back, get in someone’s face and do epic battle.

But it won’t change the pattern. The root. The energetic eddy. That log jam in your magnificent energy system. It will not alter the swirl that keeps carrying you into the same blockade, into the same kinds of circumstances, into your own version of chaos and drama – with different characters and in different places. It won’t shift those lifelong patterns.

 

Dear one, you are not doing anything wrong.

Right now. In this very moment. Imagine me taking your beautiful face into my hands – looking into your wise eyes – and hearing me say with love, tenderness and infinite kindness…

It is.  Not.  Your.  Fault.

 

Whatever IT is – It is not your fault. You haven’t now or ever done anything wrong.

Whatever IT is – is a doorway in. The opportunity to go deeper. To love yourself more fully. To accept yourself more radically. To embrace yourself with arms wide open. To call more of your precious and amazing self home – into your own vast and unbounded heart.

 

Every single moment of every single day you have courageously shown up to your life. You have done the best you were able to at any given moment – even if YOU KNEW IT WAS NOT THE BEST THING in that moment.

 

Every single day you have gathered yourself and valiantly taken your heart and Soul out into the world. You have made huge strides in your life. You have so much to be appreciative and proud of. You have healed so very much.

 

And yet – you may still believe deep down that your inability to change whatever you have struggled and endeavored to change for as long as you can remember is your own damn fault. Your failure. That you are to blame.

Dear one, there is just no benefit in blaming yourself. It simply won’t ever make you better. Allow you to change faster. Act smarter. Be universally acceptable. Or get you what you really want.

 

 

So how DO we change?

 

– We begin by listening more deeply and bravely to what we tell ourselves.

 

– We catch ourselves when we hear that ugly and berating voice, also known as the inner judge uttering quietly such awful things like,
“I’m so stupid!
Why did I DO that?
I should have known better.
What IS the matter with me?
If I just had _____name yours_____ then I would be smarter. Better. Brighter. Good enough.”

And then we back up. We apologize to ourselves.

We stop. Because we would NOT let a stranger talk to our child that way.

 

– We learn kindness. Compassion. Gentleness. Respect. Patience. Tenderness. For ourselves.

 

– We get to the energetic roots of the issues. We untangle the log jams. Get to the detritus accumulated in the river of our being and free it. Let it move on out. With kindness. With forgiveness. With love. For ourselves.

 

– We call in true and trustworthy companions and guides for the journey that will hold the highest vision for us, even – especially – when we don’t have a clue about what that is.

 

– We become stewards of our own ecosystem – of our own energy.  Your energy system extends far beyond what you can currently imagine. Far beyond what you are able to touch with your hands or see with your eyes. It is complex, magnificent, luminous. It has multiple layers, intricate mechanisms all created to support and inform you.

Your vast and beautiful energy system responds to vibration, to attention, to awareness, to love. To mindful cultivation. Your own energy system is here to work with you and support you. It holds the entire history of your Soul within it. It is the suppository of your own wise knowing and home to your Higher Self.

 

– We learn to tend to ourselves and our own energy in new and nourishing ways.

 

– We open our hearts and minds to deeper and wider solutions. None of which we can imagine in this moment. And that is as it should be. We aren’t there yet. All we need to do is lift our eyes to the horizon and ask to connect to the solutions out in front of us – because that is where they live.

 

– We cultivate curiosity and let go of any belief that we already know anything about what those solutions will look like.

 

This takes time. It is a process. It is the work of a lifetime. Because the river of our life is a continuous flow.

 

So my questions for you, dear one are these…

 

What are you still blaming yourself for?

 

And are you ready to embrace the possibility that you may NOT be to blame? That there may be other unknown factors involved?

 

And most of all – are you finally ready and willing to stop?

 


 

You.  Your Journey.  Opportunity.

 

There are enormous opportunities for personal growth and huge transformation available now that can lift you up and on to your next level of experience – whatever that may be for you personally and/or professionally. This is an extraordinary opportunity.
And – As is always the case when big transformative energies are at play in the world – the possibility of spinning out and experiencing frustration and confusion in an eddy of murkiness and obscuration is also present.

As we reach upward for the luminous gold of transformation we are also simultaneously sorting through the detritus and debris of our past experiences, perceptions, familial history, stories and beliefs that are below us.

This is the very nature of Transformation.

We must sort through and integrate what has come before in order to release the constrictions that no longer serve us so that we may move into a more expansive and possibility filled landscape.

 

Now –

What if you could somehow tap into these energies in a way that lifted you up and supported you to maximize this potential for your own growth and transformation?

What if you are able to personally align to these BIG energies, planetary and otherwise afoot, in a way that brings you more ease and fluidity as you move into your next upward spiral?

Imagine what it would feel like to be held in loving support as you release those internal constrictions and soften resistance  – all the while connecting to that next highest potential outcome?

 

“I feel like I am being held in exactly the way I need to be held.”

 

“This is not like other groups I have been a part of. I love the multi-dimensional aspect of it. It truly feels like all the bases are covered. I can’t think of anything I’d add or take away.”

 

“I can feel the strong net of energetic support that is holding me. It is palpable.”

 

 

As I have been calling in the energies and allies for the Autumn Season of Support small group I have been struck by the enormous and profound container for healing and transformation on very deep levels that is being created. 

At the level of DNA.

Shifts in emotional patterns.

Shifting and healing issues around Power and stepping more fully into one’s own.

Deep Acceptance of Self.

Alignment. Creating a stronger, straighter alignment to one’s inner Core. To Gaea/Sophia, the Earth herself who is waking from a long slumber and embracing and integrating her shadow as we each do the same. 

Letting go of over-doing.

Releasing the need for control due to fear. Which is always the bottom line of why we have any need to control outcomes – to feel safer.

 

These are a few of the energies gathering round to support a very small group of women from this coming Autumnal Equinox to Winter Solstice.

Eight beautiful beings standing side by side in solidarity supporting one another.

Each committed to their own authentic journey.

Each willing to say yes to their own lives and the dreams that are calling them forward at an even deeper level.

Each one with a burning passion to make a difference in their own lives as well as in the lives of others.

 

 

This is my invitation to you…
Tap into and utilize the powerful transformative energies at play in this next potent season of the year in a way that brings you greater ease, flow and stability.

Receive crystal clear alignment to the exact processes you, your Higher Self and your Soul’s own knowing are calling you toward.

Move into this next turning, that next leap in your own life with so much more ease and support. Experience the benefits of a seasoned and experienced guide – along with other fellow travelers just as committed to invoking their own transformative powers – their own Soul-ful journey – as you are.

 

Join me for A Season of Support this Autumn – say “Yes!” to your big adventure – your life.

 

There are three spots left. Does one of them belong to you? 

 

 

Registration closes September 15

 

” Melani Marx is an energy genius… this work has uplifted, inspired and infused my creative force with nutrition I did not even understand I needed.”

Judy Keating

 

 


 

Supporting clients to release constrictions that limit them from being lifted up to their next highest potential outcomes – whatever they may be.

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“Melani, lots of people can hold space for people. What you do is sooo much more than that. You hold huge space. Safe space. A space of unlimited potentiality with no agenda about what that should or might look like for anyone. That is a are gift.”

Magi Mc Cabe  – Master Astrologer

***

” Melani makes miracles and the miraculous every-day and almost ordinary.”

Laura Rath

 

Are you desiring strong, experienced and loving support to make your own next leap forward? Schedule a conversation with me here. Let’s get to know each other and explore what might be possible.

 

Portrait photos:Thomas Doty
Art  from my journal by Gaelle Boissonnard
All other photo credits: Melani Marx 

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